As of right now, I am no longer a breast feeding mom. After the worst night of sleep ever, we made a command decision not to let this drag on any longer. I took Knox to the doctor to make sure he didn’t have an ear infection considering he is waking up screaming bloody murder several times a night. He doesn’t. I talked with our pediatrician for a long time about his sleep (or lack thereof). He said it’s totally fine to let him go cold turkey- the gradual weaning is more for me than him. We figure he’ll just feel teased by being able to nurse sometimes and not others, so that’s that.
I had to nurse him one more time after the appointment so I could enjoy our last breast feeding session. I made sure to take the time to study his sweet little face, his tiny hand holding onto me and just soak in that last moment of nursing him. I will sorely miss those sweet times, but I am ready to move onward and get the weaning over with.
Last night, I decided not to let him breast feed when he woke up during the night and not to put him in our bed. By 3 a.m., I had been up six times since 10 p.m. Then, at that point, he decided not to go back to sleep at all. He was exhausted, but man can that kid put up a fight! By 5 a.m. I gave up. Of course at that point, he was so overly tired, it didn’t matter what I did- he was ticked off in a major kind of way. He still woke up every 30 minutes or so, which is what has pushed me to the breaking point today. We figure his teeth are hurting, which is why he’s waking up, but then he is demanding that I soothe him once he’s up. We’re switching to Advil from Tylenol tonight to see if that works any better, but hopefully, after he understands that the boobies are no more, things will calm down at night. I plan on pumping a couple times a day until my supply decreases enough to just let things dry up on their own without agonizing boob pain. Now all that’s left to do is… oh yeah, suffer through this week while Knox learns to sleep without me. Should be fun!